11/1/2017-
My sleep went mostly uninterrupted by hallucinations or visions. This marks about 7 weeks since they've subsided. On top of that, the side effects from the medication are thankfully also mild.

Occasional diarrhea is absolutely a fair trade off for ditching the feeling something just out of my view was closing in on me to unravel my very existence.

I did have a strange dream last night, however. It was - like many of my dreams lately- much more vivid than the ones I've had in past years. I was in the apartment staircase with all the doors, it reminds me of the Bythyss space exercise I did months ago, only this activity is relegated to my dreams where such weird stuff belongs.

With so many nights of actually restful sleep and living back home at an even slower pace than I had been in Foefurr, I think I am finally feeling better from my breakdown in August to the point where I will catch myself lost in thought retracing the whole sequence of events that put me back in my mom's care.

It may be unhealthy to ruminate on subjects like my career path, what happened with Rachel and- of course- Jake Jas' brother too hard, but it's also probably important to take the momentum I've found myself with lately to start slowly sorting things out.

Leaving the house hasn't been as scary the past few weeks, and since my goal overall is to try to lead a life less dominated by that anxiety, I think it's time to start taking advantage of that.

I have a few errands to run today. I didn't get too ambitious, but I want to see how it goes to actually start crossing things off of my list.
After that, I made plans to go out and see Delilah again! Will write back on how that goes tonight, as I have been trying to do regularly.

-KL